God is Compassionate

To the Lord my God:

Your goodness is so great!
You have stored up great blessings for those who honor you.
You have done so much for those who come to you for protection,
blessing them before the watching world.
Psalm 31:19

Today I am thankful to my Lord and God for rescuing me from the darkness. I have found security many times in the shelter of His wings. He has blessed me before a watching world. His blessings on me will continue and I will continue to rely upon Him for protection, for everything I need or want. He is faithful and compassionate. Psalm 116:5 - "The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion." He loves to protect us and He loves to heal us. Just like a father loves to comfort his child, so God loves to comfort His children. Jesus is the first among many brothers and sisters. Romans 8:29 says, "For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn, with many brothers and sisters. " NLT. I am being conformed to the likeness of Jesus because of Jesus' Spirit living within my spirit. Though I long to please God I have to admit, of myself I can never please Him. I can only run to Him as a little child and ask Him for things and worship Him as God. Jesus gave me His Spirit and He guides me: Isaiah 30:19 - "O people of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. He will be gracious if you ask for help. He will respond instantly to the sound of your cries. Though the Lord gave you adversity for food and affliction for drink, he will still be with you to teach you. You will see your teacher with your own eyes, and you will hear a voice say, 'This is the way; turn around and walk here.'"

Now if I could only get the change of mind and heart to finally quit smoking...
This I pray in Jesus name, amen.


Resting Assured

It seems like everywhere I look these days I am seeing the mocking of God and His word...

I went to yellowpages.com and on the search page it says, "Seek and you will find..."
I was logging on to yahoo mail and it said,"Spammers giveth, spamgaurd taketh away..."

Those are just two of the things I saw on the net. But I see the bible mocked in car commercials a lot and cell phone ads. I will probably be posting them here as I see them.

Temptation to love the matrix of illusion that we live in. That's what we all face. I remember the part in the first Matrix movie when the betrayer guy is chewing on steak and he mentions how good the illusion tastes. He sacrificed his soul for the illusion and betrayed the hero of Zion. How often am I tempted to revel in the pleasures of the moment at the expense of my faith? Just today I was standing in line at 7-11 and I saw a magazine cover that said something about the secret thoughts men and women have during sex. I saw the enemy's cunning manipulation. It's not that I think that magazine was put there just for me to see, it was put there for all the empty women who rely upon it's shallow contents for answers. I was watching a sleep aid commercial and it seemed as though the little light-filled butterfly was the answer to the man's life. Just take this pill to sleep and you can quiet all the questions you have about why you are here. Some people wonder why there are here. But not if they are dosed...

Is advertising the enemy of my soul? Not really. But to a sensitive type like myself it is the details that haunt me. Right now I want to write about inspiration.

I have opened myself up to inspiration and the ice has begun to melt. My creative limbs are warming themselves from the outside and they tingle with needles. But the greatest warmth comes from the inside, where my creative heart has begun to beat again. The Holy Spirit is circling it like protons and neutrons building energy from infinity.

My guitar is a reminder that God wants me to play music. God's faithfulness brought me that guitar and my microscopic faith will learn to play it. I have been a toddler with a blueprint set before me and somehow I am suppose to build what I see. The only thing I could ever think to do was wrap the big sheet of paper around me and wave it in the air. A lot of people thought that was cool. But what they really wanted to see was the building set firm upon a solid foundation where they could come and visit it to learn and feel and be comforted. Jesus has been breaking my ego to keep me in check so I don't fling myself off of an eternal cliff. He has renewed my mind to the point where emotion no longer guides me. My intellect is slowly taking a back seat. He has taught me how to ccontrol my thoughts and not to compromise by allowing things that may be permissable, but not beneficial. All over my workplace the lawyers debate about current events with religious implications. The girls send eachother crass emails and hesitate sending them to me. I refrain from piping up to give my opinion. No, I remember that a man with few words is thought wise simply because he keeps his mouth shut. From the abundance of my heart, my mouth would speak. No compromise, this is my heart. I love my co-workers and pray for them because Jesus prays for me...


Bible Paste: On Spirit Fruit

the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. NIV

the fruit of the [Holy] Spirit [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness, gentleness (meekness, humility), self-control (self-restraint, continence). AMP

when the Holy Spirit controls our lives, he will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. NLT

Love- Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. Love will last forever... 1 Cor. 13:4

Joy- Then Simeon blessed them, and he said to Mary, "This child will be rejected by many in Israel, and it will be their undoing. But he will be the greatest joy to many others. Luke 2:34

Peace- Therefore, since we have been made right in God's sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us.

Patience-But that is why God had mercy on me, so that Christ Jesus could use me as a prime example of his great patience with even the worst sinners. Then others will realize that they, too, can believe in him and receive eternal life. 1Tim 1:16

Kindness-Don't you realize how kind, tolerant, and patient God is with you? Or don't you care? Can't you see how kind he has been in giving you time to turn from your sin? rom 2:4 So when you, a mere man, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God's judgment? Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, tolerance and patience, not realizing that God's kindness leads you toward repentance? rom 2:3-4 NIV

Goodness-If you are wise and understand God's ways, live a life of steady goodness so that only good deeds will pour forth. And if you don't brag about the good you do, then you will be truly wise! James 3:13 Then I called on the name of the LORD: "Please, LORD, save me!"How kind the LORD is! How good he is! So merciful, this God of ours! The LORD protects those of childlike faith;I was facing death, and then he saved me. Ps. 116:4-6

Faithfulness-"Even if you had faith as small as a mustard seed," the Lord answered, "you could say to this mulberry tree, `May God uproot you and throw you into the sea,' and it would obey you!" Luke 17:6

Gentleness, Meekness, Humility-You have given me the shield of your salvation. Your right hand supports me; your gentleness has made me great. Ps 18:35 Be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other's faults because of your love. Eph 4:2 And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me." Matt 18:3-5

Self-Control-Like a city whose walls are broken down is a man who lacks self-control. prov. 25:28 Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 1Pet 5:8

1Peter 1:5-7
For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love.


Time is Short

The term "You only live once!" doesn't apply to those who make Jesus Christ their Lord. So the attitude of "Eat, drink and be merry cuz tomorrow we die." simply can't be a Christian's philosophy. Does the promise of Heaven ever make me suicidal? I would be lying if I said no. But I am discovering a safe place for different lessons and new ways of having faith in God through King Jesus. I think it is beautiful that I long to be with my Maker. But I sense that I will be fighting suicidality for the rest of my life. It's like, "Jesus. I serve You. Please give me more to take care of in this life." Though my secret passion is His return for me.

In any case today is all I have, this moment is all I have. And though I may find myself pushing paper and blowing off pesky clients with white lies, in my heart I serve my Lord Jesus. I know that He calls me to attention in the events of my life. He sits upon the throne in Heaven awaiting my knock and my humble request. He longs to reply, "Even up to half the kingdom. Ask and it is yours."

Somedays I wish for an end to this life, but I think what I really want is to live the eternal life right now. It is possible because I read it in the bible, I think. Now if I could just remember where I read that...


Lord Help the Freaks

Lord help me, I am such a freak sometimes. But He loves me and calls me back to Him when I wander off. It's a really scary thing to let go of God's hand. Especially after He has led you to a place where you only could have gone with His help. Then for some reason you let go. Maybe something distracts you or you feel an independent streak fill you with pride that clouds the mind. In any case, a few days ago I let go and found myself falling like a wounded eagle. I was pretty high so it took me a while before I realized I was headed toward the ground. When I saw it rising slowly below me, however, I panicked. Panic is never good for me. I flail and usually end up smacking people that are trying to help me. I realized that I had taken God out of the center and put Him on the fringes, I prayed and resumed focus on Him. Just in time, too. The wind came up under my wings and God lifted me just as quickly as we had fallen away.

It is so terrifying to lose faith. It happens so subtly. A commercial here, an insecure thought there. Little by little the lie creeps in until one day we are so unsatisfied and we have all these reasons why. If only I had this or if only God provided this. So we pray for things we don't need and then patience becomes about as easy as walking is to a lame person. Frustration and fear take over and we take a sickening look around at the world we live in. Depression and anxiety plague us. "Why God? WHY!?" is the predominate thought. No one is doing a good enough job, least of all your loved ones. It's got to be someone's fault that I feel this way. Then we find ourselves exploding on the very person we treasure the most. That's when, by the grace of God, He steps in and says, "HOLD IT!" He comes right up to me and opens my squinting eyes to the reality of where I have wandered to. I fall, broken, to my knees and repent. I suffer the consequences for my actions and praise the Lord for His mercy. And I hope that I will never again lose faith.